Still looking for a job and it is becoming increasingly harder not to make a judgement on current employers and their criteria for short listing, inviting to interview and eventually who they employ.
Surely it cant be true that at the age of forty eight I am no longer employable?
One of the things that I have come to accept in life that I have learned over the years, is that in certain aspects I have no power of decision making when it comes to advancing myself, especially in terms of my career. I can fill in application forms to the best of my ability: if invited to interview I can prepare and be the best I can be on the day: but when it comes to the decision making process I am now powerless. Therefore I am able to accept rejection not as an expression of who I am but as a reflection of what others perceived me to be for the duration of the interview.
It is now gone and there is no going back but is there something for me to learn from the experience? Did I do myself justice? And regardless of the answer to the question, in terms of me judging my own personal performance, it is still gone and I move on to the next venture. If though I can answer yes to reflective questions I can then say thank you to those that made the decision not to employ me; thank you, you’ve saved me from working some where that wasn’t right for me.
I appreciate that I still want things in life that, financially, this may have provided but I will still find that, as long as I keep doing what I’m doing.
It is becoming harder and harder to find work but this thought process ensures a position from which I can continue to look in a good frame of mind, a frame of mind that doesn’t constantly question my own sense of worth; there must be something wrong with me if I keep getting rejected; no not at all, there may be something wrong with how I write applications, there may something I can change about how I interview but these are change-ables and do not mean there is something wrong with me.
I have no power over the decision making of others, I can do only what I can do to the best of my ability, there is no more. And if I do that Iwill influence the decision making process to the best of my ability but I’m still at the mercy of the judgements of others. There is nothing to gain from speculating about their criteria after a rejection, this is not something I can know to be true and is therefore not my business. As such I can be happy or sad depending upon whether or not I was the best I could be at that time and if I was, happy days and thank you, you given me the continued opportunity of finding the right place to work, for me.